I am sorry, but we may be dead.


I am sorry, but we may be dead.
by Shazde Asdola Mirza

I wasn’t sure how to break the news, until here came the self-obituary of a fellow writer – so now you know.  

“We” died 34 years ago; even though some of us will live for another thirty, forty years.  

If it is any consolation, rest in peace that our enemies are dead too. Actually, the best part is that: it doesn’t matter anymore who our friends or our enemies were … because “we” are all dead.  

I first noticed my death, when I revisited Iran after two decades. I went on a pilgrimage of all the familiar sites and souls: my college, my high school, the old house and some old friends. But everything had metamorphosed: university to Friday prayer grounds, high school to Basij center, nice house to ugly apartment, good friends to …  

I had woken up to a complete metamorphosis! It wasn’t just that everything had changed beyond recognition; I too had been transformed beyond any existential ties to them. Like a ghost of a bygone era, I could pass through places and meet up people, without making any connections, without leaving any impressions.  

Back again in the Americas, I knew for sure that my homeland had died, complete with a great deal of my culture and heritage. Sadly, I soon realized that I was dead too! I mean: What is a statement without context? What is a fish out of water? What is a bird in cage?  

Well, in every good old ghost movie, the unhappy spirits come back from the dead, to haunt the living. Not surprisingly, they do it for a good reason. They often are trying to send an important message, warn the living of a danger, or teach them a lesson.  

Soon, I found myself writing, for the first time. And that is what “we” the ghosts are all doing here. That is what all the writers have done before us: Preserving a moment past. Transferring a thought lost. Revisiting the labyrinths of life, now dead.  

The funny side of our writing, like that of a jolly ghost story, is that we constantly have brutal and pointless fights with our fellow dead companions. Mosaddegh lovers attack Reza Shah. Shah followers curse the leftists. Mojahedin assault Khomeini …  

It is very funny, because we try to hurt one another and stab each other with all we got; except that no one can sustain any injuries anymore … because “we” already are dead.


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By requiring Iran have Queens.

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"Narcissus in his immobility,
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I did not mean it literally and (of course :) I did not mean you.

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Losing a battle doesn't mean losing the war. It took Americans almost 100 years to get their democracy in place. It took the Brits over 400 years. If Democratic systems were easy to implement - then we wouldn't be on this website. Its like getting rich - if it was easy everyone would be rich. Democracy requires a tough enduring battle - which creates hard nose, experienced, and wiser candidates our of the process and stronger institutions - than with out it. The process of establishing and operating a democracy - has value in and of itself. You just don't get it!

We're still alive and kicking. And we will win democracy - where it is our right to win hearts and minds - with public fights. There is nothing wrong with fights! Nothing! In a democracy you want a good fight. A good debate. A good argument. A brutal public display - is all good. Makes for better decisions, policies and ultimately better leaders.

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SA Mirza, if you are a loser - get out of our way. Because we will keep on fighting and Iran will be returned to its rightful free and democratic future. The difference between the men and the boys is right here. Men never give up, they never give in...and they keep on fighting till they have no air to breathe.

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This should replace the old mantra of:

"Je pense donc je suis."

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"The funny side of our writing, like that of a jolly ghost story, is that we constantly have brutal and pointless fights with our fellow dead companions. Mosaddegh lovers attack Reza Shah. Shah followers curse the leftists. Mojahedin assault Khomeini …"    Thanks for sharing.