Am I dead?


Am I dead?
by Jahanshah Javid

I was dead tired this afternoon and had a long nap. This is the dream I had:

I was somewhere in Iran. I think I was in Tehran, driving around. I think I was being chased, but not very sure. If I was, I was not too worried. I was driving either a car or some other vehicle through streets, back alleys and even sidewalks in a residential area. I felt good, a little anxious, but mostly excited. At one point I entered a wide street, moving in the opposite direction by mistake. I quickly made a u-turn to avoid being hit by oncoming traffic.

I don't know how or why, but I got into a plane. An Iran Air flight. It was nerve racking. The plane was flying at very low altitude above the city. I felt the plane did not have enough power. At one point it was flying above a street and tilted 90 degrees so that the wings would not hit the buildings.

Eventually the plane landed -- in my hometown Abadan and parked right in front of our home, 110 Beraim. I was so thrilled. From the window I could see the building had been beautifully renovated and turned into what seemed like a tourist center. The arches were decorated with wooden panels and glass. I was very excited and I told the other passengers that this was the home I grew up in.

At the exit door, I saw an old man that looked familiar -- someone who may have been my parents' friend when I was a child. I told him I knew him and said hello. I said it was wonderful that our home had been turned into a tourist center. But the man replied that this was not 110 Beraim, but the morgue! I looked out again and the building and the surrounding area still seemed like where I grew up. I was not upset, but a little perplexed. A morgue? Hmm... whatever you say, I thought.

Before getting off the plane, I woke up.

I didn't feel bad about the dream, just confused about why our house would be a morgue.

Does this mean I'm dead or dying soon or... any dream interpreters out there? There are a few things I would like to do before I leave this world :o)

PS: The above photo was taken in 1999, 22 years after our family left Abadan.


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Ladan Farhangi

More Interpretations!

by Ladan Farhangi on

First, I thank Rad Lanjani who introduced the link to Dream Dictionary. Using that dictionary, I searched for the different aspects of your dream:

To dream that you are in traffic, signifies frustrations in life and that things are not going as smoothly as you would like it to. You feel stuck at where you are in life.
To dream that you are driving a vehicle, signifies your life's journey and your path in life. Alternatively, driving a car in your dream, is analogous to your sex life and sexual performance.
To dream that you are being chases, signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is often a metaphor for some form of insecurity.
To dream of the countryside, suggests that you are seeking a simpler way of life. You need to take some time for yourself to relax and free your mind.
To dream that you are in a morgue and looking for someone, foretells shocking and dreadful news of the death of a relative or close friend.
Sorry, please forgive me for last interpretation. Ladan Farhangi



by Yachov on

How did you know that I thought of Daniel 2 at all?  I don't believe I said it. :)

You are right that I was thinking of Daniel 2: 40 through 43, the "end of days" which is what I believe JJ is seeing in his dream only he is not seeing it in the future, he is seeing it now.  :)   

Jahanshah Javid

Thank you!

by Jahanshah Javid on

I learned something from all your interpretations. I think there was an element of truth in everything you said. My conclusion is that the past is truly dead within me, even though I will always have fond memories.

On to the future!


Madar Arous...:-)

by Souri on

Thinks that your dream has its root in a conversation you have had couple of days ago, with a reader called " I wonder"


That conversation made its place in your subconscious , and transform itself to a dream yesterday. Actually, you may said something there, that you were not so sure about its veracity, then your subconscious was still wondering, so that dream, came to your help

I charge only $100.....

Aletrnatively you can take the interpretation as a gift for your BD :O)



by Hajminator on

You refer to Daniel 2:28, comparing JJ to King Nebuchadnezzar ? Joghdeh shoom.

I may change Daniel 2:28 to Daniel 2:36-37 -
"This was the dream; now we will tell its interpretation before the king. You, O king, are the king of kings, to whom the God of heaven has given the kingdom, the power, the strength and the glory."

Dreamet in bood JJ jan.


Interpretation of your dream is quite obvious

by Dream Catcher (not verified) on

You're tired of iraniandotcom so you want to get away. Now when I say you’re tired of iraniandotcom don’t bend out of shape. You love a lot of things about it, but you’re also tired of a lot of bullshit that comes along with it, complaining emails, name calling, bickering, threats, and so on. You work so hard to maintain this window of opportunity for others that in the middle of the day you have to take a nap. You want to get away, you DRIVE away but cannot GET away, so you seek a more drastic major, such as you did when you moved to Mexico. You take an airplane and go to Abadan, where you had a tranquil life relative to what you have now. You go to the house where your happiest memories are located. Your recent photo essay is also an indication that you seek that loving, happy environment, but your subconscious doesn’t even allow you to have it without a cost.

The burden that you carry on shoulders is too much. Your house of happiness soon turns into a morgue, which is the story of most anyone who is Iranian. We all carry a heavy load. Too many dead people in our lives. We see dead people. You see more.


this is what your dream means....

by ahvazi on

In this dream you saw what you have gone through over the past 30 years. You start the dream in Tehran, excited going all over the place. This is the time when you were young and excited about the the revolution and your place in it, but as you went on you realized that you were going on the wrong path (thus going down the wrong way of a one-way street). The low-flighing, tilted plane too represents the confusing time that you might have gone through as you left that life behind.    

Coming to Abadan is coming home and finding yourself.  The old man and the morgue are the doubters that you face. You know Abadan and 110 Beraim is a beautiful place but the old man is telling you its a "morgue" but you are not peturbed because you know that it is not a "morgue".  These are doubters that you have faced over the years since that want to discourage your ideas and undermine the truths that now guide your world-view.




از قدیم و ندیم گفتند که...

بچه شیر (not verified)

خواب زن چپه :-) ... از شوخی گذشته عزیز جان با شکم پر خوابیدن ایجور خواب دیدن ها را هم داره.

Rad Lanjani

Long live with JJ!

by Rad Lanjani on

Dear JJ,

You wrote that, "At the exit door, I saw an old man that looked familiar, someone who may have been my parents' friend when I was a child."
According to Dream Dictionary: "To see your dead sibling, relative, or friend in your dream, indicates that you miss them and are trying to relive your old experiences you had with them". Here is a link to Dream Dictionary where you may search all aspects of your dream on Morgue; I just searched for the "Dead". I think you should not be worried; you just missed them and you are trying to relive your old experiences you had with them. Long live with JJ. Rad

Natalia Alvarado-Alvarez

Way to go Teapot......

by Natalia Alvarado-Alvarez on

I really like Teapot's interpretation of JJ's dream






Death symbolizes a new

by teapot (not verified) on

Death symbolizes a new beginning, or rebirth, new outlook, new set of values, new set of understandings. It means you're ready to move forward without mourning the past. A second or third one Act is brewing in your inner soul. You're happier than you have ever been in your life and your wounds are slowly healing.

Don't be afraid to be happy. This time it will last much longer.


be ghole madar bozorgam aval

by kofri (not verified) on

be ghole madar bozorgam aval begam khayer enshallah baad bargardam bekhonamesh!!!


agree with comment below

by Anonymously on

agree with comment below about eating just before going to sleep. i almost always have disturbing, vivid dreams.

it's like the mind can't sleep because the stomach is busy digesting the food, so it turns on the TV to pass idle the scifi channel!


I read it like this... the

by Anonymously on

I read it like this... the PAST is dead and gone. Let it go.

It's fine to be nostalgic and relive the past once in a while, but you (and many other emigrants who either won't go back of their own will, or can't go back) live in some aggrandized version of your younger years simply because it is out of reach.

I go back every year (because of family), and every time I pass our childhood house i pause mentally for an instance to reflect on the fond memories, and let it go again.

Perhaps it is 'closure' that you're lacking. The chance to say the final goodbye?


California Dreamin'

by Yachov on

It isn't JJ who is dead.  It is the government which is dead and has turned the homes of the people into morgues.  JJ could not get off the plane because if he went back to live in Iran at this time, he would be in the oppression that causes the stifling sensation of death.   



Bahram G

Observation, not interpretation

by Bahram G on

I am no expert interpreting dreams. I am not sure if anyone really is. So, dear JJ, I won't offer you any help in revealing the meanings and significances of your dream.

What I can say with fairly solid facts to support is that it is very endearing that you, as a matter of course, unabashedly and often reveal things about yourself. Things that most of us would not even share with our most intimate friends. That's a breath of fresh air and I really enjoy reading your posts. Be they stories of your past, present adventures, or excursions in the mysterious dreamland.


Bahram G


Remnants of an old life dead and buried

by TheMrs on

You are dead. A part of you who was in that building is completely dead.


In cases of political turmoil, war or even family breakups, people lose their childhood in the streets and back alleys of places they grew up. Even if all is well but each family member end up in a different part of the world, the sense of home is shattered.

It’s about not having closure. A life interrupted!  

So you dream of places of your childhood. You’re shocked to be back because it’s unexpected. But you also feel happy to be back. You’re not worried because you’re in familiar surroundings. There’s always an element of danger like this airplane. Because you’re not quite safe either, otherwise you’d still be there!

 Pull up Emily Dickinson's Because I Could Not Stop For Death He Kindly Stopped For Me. 


Swing of the pendulum

by Amir Kabir walking at the rose garden (not verified) on

The dream takes you to two ends of an spectrum, happiness and sadness, companionship and loneliness, crowd and emptiness.

We rewind and charge our fatigued brain and maintain other bodily functions at molecular level when asleep. The waves of events woven while asleep and their modulations nourish the brain to what it lacks or is desiring. Lack of inhibition is the key to a good brain recharge.

Your subconscious desires the childhood house and wants you and all your friends visiting that house. It's a command being sent by the brain forcing the optic cortex to help with the visualization of the house as a tourist center. Brain continues feeding the information for visualization. When the process reaches peak of a wave, it tends to move to the opposite direction. So,the conscious brain interferes with a surge of new data, that you are in "exile" and by sending this strong dramatic message, it reverses the positive mood-in-progress and sharp negative ionization, merely to balance things out towards the other end of the spectrum. Brain has concluded that a "morgue" is the best available choice for the opposite spectrum of a "tourist center". In fact that is a very clever calculation of the brain to locate an antonym.

The end result is a balanced swing, but since afternoon naps are generally shorter than a night sleep, the brain has to wrap things up fast and get ready for the wake up command. Getting up after this kind of dreams after an afternoon nap, makes the leftover modulation and swings of the pendulum to continue for quite a while and sometimes the emotions are so strong that it inscribes a memory of that dream into our brain for the rest of our life.

Such memorized dreams sometimes come back as a "theory" for future dreams and interfere with weaving of those dreams as "given and known facts"!

Iranian Reader

yeah, we're all alive!

by Iranian Reader on

but how in the world is that possible?

(If it weren't for our kargadan skin we would have worn out seven kafans already!)


No wonder you felt dead!

by Jaleho on

First, you put pictures of your childhood in Abadan.

That made the neurons connecting to those timeframe perfectly fresh and active in your brain.

But remember, you were showing off with your ping pong champ BS, but once Jaleho the REAL champ called you upon it, you started to get really scared.

Since you know, and I know that you have absolutely no chance in a ping pong tournament with me, you correctly started to feel that you're dead.

 That's the onlu scientific interpretation of your dream, so you can throw out the others safely. It is OK for you to continue feeling dead.


באחרית יומיא

by Yachov on

באחרית יומיא



by maziar 058 (not verified) on

what ever you dream is a destiny drawn on you own for self gratification to fill that hollow in our lives........
Q: Did you had your sombrero when reaching to Abadan ?
if yes your dream will come true, if not....
take it easy


Volek see che ziad felfel khordi!

by ramintork on

You didn't have too much Galieh Mahi, Soboor, or Mahi Zobedi by any chance?

If I was going to take your trip I would have done the decent thing a Beche Abadani would do, I would have taken a detour, goto Milk Bar and buy a pair of Ray Bans ( because I wouldn't be seen dead in Abadan without them!), goto Cinema Taj and see Hamsafar, then goto Segoosh swimming pool and take a dive on that tall diving board!

I'm going to use the occasion ke yek kom laaf biom and post my  old Abadanis story:-



JJ jan, what a dream ...

by Mehrnaz (not verified) on

JJ Jan, I loved your dream a lot, thank you for sharing it. You recently shared your beautiful family photos which people commented on and this seems to have stirred up past memories. It is not possible to interpret someone else's dreams out of context, and particularly to tell them what it is about!!! In psychoanalytic norm, dreams are explored in a specific context in terms of what they mean to YOU and the analyst will suggest an interpretation but can never define the meaning, because of course there is no fixed meaning beyond very individual experiences and associations, which only you know about.

Working on some research and feeling rather sad, I also had a dream a few days ago that I was cutting a huge, thick, ancient tree trunk that seemed very dead, with a hacksaw. It looked SO DEAD, I hated it, I felt I had to ... The gardener appeared by my side and said "This is alive, the bark looks dead but it will shoot in the spring". I was so full of remorse, I started putting my ears on the dead bark listening to it, touching it with my fingers to feel the life inside ...

In the dreamland, dreams meet and merge.

Jahanshah Javid


by Jahanshah Javid on

Thanks Masoud Jan. Yeah... lots of nostalgia. Maybe in the next life I'll be a lifeguard at Segoosh. I just hope there will be no segregation and the pool will be used by boys AND girls, like before :o)

Mamnoon Hamshahri!

Jahanshah Javid


by Jahanshah Javid on

Relax... what's the worst that could happen? We're all just having a friendly exchange. Whatever anyone says is not going to change me or my life.

Masoud Kazemzadeh


by Masoud Kazemzadeh on

JJ jaan,

I think dreams sometimes have meanings and sometimes don’t. In this case, I think you looking into old photos and putting the photos of your parents from the trip to Europe and Egypt both fits into a yearning and re-emphasized and re-accentuated those. I think you miss your parents. Being with your sister both reminds you of your wonderful sweet, SECURE, and comfortable life back in Abadan.

The Beraim home is your yearning both for the safety and security of Abadan and your parents. The morgue is you missing your mom and dad very much.

The airplane and other stuff is you retracing back your return to when you were a child, care free, secure, and happy. They perhaps retrace the excitement and pain of the past 30 years.

A lot of folks do not realize how truly wonderful and secure life was for sherkat nafti kids (both middle class and working class) in Beriam, Bavardeh, Bahmanshir and other places in Abadan.

I hope your next dream will be you swimming in estakhr-e segoosh, or playing tennis next to the other estakhr, or dancing in bashgah Golestan, or Boat Club, or lunch at Annex, or playing football with kids from Babak or 25 Shahrivar, or stealing your first kiss in Bashgah Naft’s open cinema.....

You are very alive and will be alive for many many many years. Just being a little nostalgic. It is very healthy. Once you get married again, and have more children, you wont have these dreams. Then, you will dream that you are an ATM machine.

My 2 gheron,




You know, these dreams are extremely important. They are

by marilyn (not verified) on

the key to the INNER world, the world of DEPTH, self-understanding, the unconscious. Anyone who truly knows dream analysis would understand that is is DANGEROUS to try to guide someone into the depths of the inner worldthrough PIXELS on a screen in view of THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE.

So I, as someone well-trained in dream analysis would suggest that if you don't know what you're doing, don't pretend you do, and if you THINK you know what you're doing and you think you can do it HERE, you're wrong, you don't know what you're doing, and..

if you DO know what you're doing, you already know that you shouldn't do it here and you'll write Jahanshah PRIVATELY and talk to him about it offsite.

My THREE cents,
I'm not kidding.


Jahanshah Javid

Making sense

by Jahanshah Javid on

Thank you Tafreshi and Dream Interpreter. Very interesting stuff. Just glad I'm not dead -- yet!



by Dream Interpreter (not verified) on

There are two (2) components to this dream:

First, the issue of 'Escape'; and,

Second, the issue of 'Refuge'.

The issue of 'Escape' is obvious which we all have in one sense or another: these are issues of personal life, society issue, etc.

The issue of 'Refuge' is the more interesting one: The wisdom that is within you is telling you that a place that 'used to be' a place of 'Refuge', is no more. The depiction of morgue by an older (wisdom within you) man is essentially telling you that there is no 'Life' there: meaning what you thought existed, no longer does.

The overall interpretation: You are clinging to some old ways (Refuge) to solve your present problems, but for some reason, you are not facing up to the reality that they DO NOT work anymore. The course of action necessary is to accept and embrace new possibilities, and let go of old ones.