No matter where I went, no matter who I saw, I found no glimpse of Truth


by Morvarid

I am sitting in a high school class. It’s the end of grade eleven and I can barely take it anymore. I feel I am suffocating. I want my freedom.

Outside the walls of this school is where I thought my freedom would be.

On this particular day, in a stuffy, windowless classroom, our religion teacher is discussing about Truth. The students around me seem to be listening partially, as if waiting for it all to come to an end. I am tired too, but something in the teacher’s sentences catches my attention, the word “Truth”. I ask him, “all religions can’t be true, yet each is true to the people who are following it”. He looks at me with the look he gives when he doesn’t know the answer to the question. “Truth is partial”, he says, “a part of it is in this and a part of it is in that”. How unsatisfying of an answer…

I was finally freed from those walls, which I thought were holding me back from all that life had to give. Yet, the outside world didn’t hold the answer to my questions... at least in high school I had those walls to hide behind. Now, I can only hold myself responsible for not knowing.

Does anybody know the way? Day after day passes and I have yet to find someone who knows the way. Some days I forget even what I am looking for. I walk for hours no knowing where I am going, but somehow hoping that on my path will be someone who can help me, point me in the right direction.

Many years have passed since I sat in that classroom and I discussed of Truth with my teacher. That conversation amid those students, who probably weren’t even listening, still comes to my mind. I have read in many books that Truth is like a pathless path. It hasn’t got any directions. No one can show me how to get there. Each of us is to find it on our own, in our own unique way. Even if I found someone who knew the way, they couldn’t help me. How unsatisfying of an answer…

In the meanwhile, everyone is enjoying life it seems or maybe not. I see them always occupied, busy, wrapped up in one story or another. Everyone is falling in and out of love and moving on. They are all smiling and appear so happy. From one party to another, from one person to another, they are telling me that they are living. Maybe that is where Truth is and so I joined them. From clubs to parties, I see them posing, I see them smiling. Their smiles are empty. Their pictures are empty; there are no stories behind those pictures. The friendships aren’t as real as they appear. Yet, everyone seems contented, even happy at times.

All attempts left me unsatisfied. No matter where I went, no matter who I saw, I found no glimpse of Truth. I have also read in books that Truth must be found within you. It doesn’t exist on the outside; it is a journey that one is suppose to go on interiorly. The “how” of the journey seems to vary from person to person, which leads back to the pathless path. How unsatisfying of an ending...


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by darius on

The truth is directly related to the time . What is valid now, it might become partialy  valid or completely  irrelevant at any other point of time. Truth to me is like a complex number . It has  a real and an imaginary part to it. Although real numbers are the one that we seeking ,but  for all practical purposes ,it comes with the imaginary part  included.

So ,for the rest of  our life ,we are, and ought to consider ourselves as a thumbling body travelling into space and at any given time we are facing the difficulties finding the true ourselves and true others and sometimes we have to wait to find the truth.

Should we listen to what Khayam says?

Pendar ke nisti, cho hasti khosh bash !




Truth is a collection of realities

by Nosratallah on

Truth is a collection of realities. Think of realities as snap shot of events in time, place, status, people,... They are real valid and they exist 100% at a thin slice of time sections of moment, these snap shots are static. Now, look at the whole sequence in motion, this would be a dynamic element that you call the "Truth" about an element. One catchy thing about it is that that right ingredients must come together to make the Truth valid, if these snap shots do not have the right ingredients (time, place, status, people, ...) then Truth is becoming partial one, and is a tool for manipulations. Patial Truth is False and void.Check on Boolean logic (George Boole).




Truth? You can't handle the truth! (Jack Nicholson ;-)

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Everything is sacred.

Islam goes to Hell .

What is Truth ?

by Islam goes to Hell . on

If i can say something about Truth , it all depends what kind of Truth are you trying to search the answer for ?


Are you meaning the Truth of life and why we are here in this world ? Are you searching for a Universal or a Particular truth ? 

So one can answer you as long as you ask a specific question ,there are Universal truth and there are Particular Truth , Universal Truth are accepted and commonly shared by all beings (all Human beings on Earth ! ) , these facts / Truth are undeniable and no one can refute and deny them , such as every body would one day die ! this would be a universal truth accepted by all Beings every where , or another example would be , there are days and nights, sun ,stars and galaxies , etc ..and so on ..

However in my opinion a Particular truth could be VALID only and only for a Specifc situation or for a Specific person , lets say each human being has his/ her own unique (genetic / emtional / family statuts[wealth], childhood environment / family / intellectual abilities / sexual drives, and all the other psychological traumas one suffers in life ) ,complexities which are so unique and unlike other human being , therefore the truth in this Particularity of a given Person involved is charactristic of that given person , each individual given the above conditions would have his / her own unique Conception of truth about a thing or things of life (in fact that would be a person's world views and how he/she feels to BE in this world ) . It is one's uinque way of feeling and being in this world like no other beings .  

My truth ( rather view points of life and the way i see life and others )  therefore would be completly different as a unique individual whith my own unique past history (my unique culture , my childhood environment , family , political problems in my country ,so on ...) which would affect my views of life later on , some people are born with the propensity to depression and sadness or even suicidal tendencies ,you must as well consider these inclinasions into your own world views in search of your OWN PERSONAL TRUTH  or other Universal truth  .

It seems to me you are searching for your own particular truth in life your kind of puzzled by all other Human beings ,being artificially happy in life however knowing one day they perrish ! however from your writting i feel that you are depressed and trying t find an ABOLUTE answer for anything , one thing you were right about , people are all putting a mask and some are very good actors at life and some are poor actors at life's game , as your final questions boils down to WHY ARE WE HERE IN THIS WORLD ? AND WHAT IS IT THERE TO BE HAPPY ABOUT IN THIS WORLD / LIFE ?( definitley there is a Suicidal/depressive tendency in you in my opinion )which makes you see everything as realistic as possible , in fact your questioning is all right and you are accurate in your observation and assessment of the life's futility where other search for happiness and wealth and more pleasure when it all ends in the Tomb ! 

Well ! no one can answer those FUNDAMENTAL questions , those same questions due to your depression and sensitivity to this CRUEL life among other insensitive human being, these same questions had brought people like Buddha and many others to search for an answer , at the end they just found the NOTHINGNESS was the answer , which means , they achieved a state of total emptiness in their Being that stopped asking quesitons and just gave up all the questions for good .

One main factor contributing to US Iranian being depressed and sad in this world is our Political situation in our country due to Islam and not having freedom and democracy since 1400. ! ... which would lower our Moral and makes us depressed , imagine we live in Exile , having lost our mother land , and pleasure of living among our warm family members and social warmth of our nation , more on this later on .     

Ma loobateh ganimo falak loobat baz , az royeh haghighat inja hastim na majaz . [Khayam] 

Ro badeh avar ey saghi ,

Keh in dam baz aram ,

Maalom nist keh key bar aram .


I suggest you read Khayam And Sohrab Sephri .

Jahanshah Javid


by Jahanshah Javid on

Very nice. I enjoyed it. Truth is one of my favorite subjects. I think about it a lot. To me it's everything. It paralyzes and liberates. I can't describe it. I don't seek the truth. Maybe I did when I was in my teens and twenties. Now the truth is always there or I feel it's there, everywhere, although I don't pay a lot of attention.


Maybe you don't want to know the truth

by Mehdi on

Think about it. If you did something really bad - something you yourself thought was really bad, would you not try to forget it? Would you not try to block it out of your mind completely? Would you not set "traps" to trap you or distract you or misdirect you every time you tried to find the truth? Just consider the possibility that maybe you don't truly want to know the truth. Are you really willing to face the consequences of finding the truth? Deep down you should know ;)


Pay close attention

by XerXes on

Stay in school. Study hard, learn all that you need to learn with highest grades. You have PLENTY of time to day dream and be all you can be. You got plenty of time to philosophize everything and anything. For now, pay attention to your teachers, books and assignments. Take them seriously so you can succeed. It's no fun being a bum or go job to job while thinking you are more aware than others. it;s more fun if you have accomplished something and have something to say. all the things that you need to say and want to say you can say in time. they dont go anywhere and you got a lot of time to express yourself. for now, look at the walls of school as a holly place of wisdom rather than prison if you want to go up the ladder of life and knowledge.
Finish all the stages of schooling and make us proud to have another wise Iranian with us.

Azarin Sadegh

You remind me of myself!

by Azarin Sadegh on

Dear Morvarid,

Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with us! I have always enjoyed your writing, and I particularly love its natural flow and the intensty of the passion which sounds so real, so organic.

Your search for "Truth", reminds me of my own wondering each time I read one of my old red little diaries (I started writing them at 15 and at 22. I gave them up (along with my dream of becoming a writer at the same time) because of the war and the blackness of the outside world,.. it wasn't easy to stay truthful to myself and still to survive. Almost as if I had to choose between life and death.

 I think at some point, later, I even stopped looking for an absolute truth, and instead I tried to grasp some pieces of it here and there, but I found them to be so slippery, and fluid. Almost misty!

Looking forward to reading more from you, Azarin


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