These past few years I have made some of the dumbest, most stupid, and biggest mistakes I have ever made, and I have no doubt that I will either repeat them or make dumber and bigger mistakes in the future. Luckily, as said in Ephesians 4:7. "But each of us was given grace... " This is my favorite quote ever. It tells me that yes, humans are a corrupt species, its our nature to make mistakes! But its the grace of God, or whatever you as the reader believes in, not to erase those mistakes, but not let them define us.
I know from experience how it feels to have the cold glare of your peers boring through you, knowing they are judging and knowing they see you as that one person who did whatever. Take me for example. (I am about to share a life experience that no, I am not proud of, but it has become a part of me and I have learned and grown from it. I am putting my faith in you as the reader to not judge me. You have no right to point your finger unless your own hand is clean.) Last year I got invited to a party- no, not an innocent birthday party sadly. A drinking, dangerous, frowned upon party. Being naive, I thought I could go, completely avoid peer pressure with no sweat, and come home the next day without my parents knowing a thing. Unfortunately, I broke under the pressure and drank. Even more unfortunate at the time, the house was on a corner and the cops got wind of it. They knew my step dad personally since he had been a cop, and instantly called him the moment they saw me. What I didn't realize at the time, was that was a huge favor to me- my parents helped me through every moment of it. Yes, I was grounded- my mother was furious! They couldn't look at me the next few days, I was completely and utterly mortified, and with good reason! I had been a complete idiot. The next few weeks at school were also a living hell. When I walked down the hallways, my former friends turned away. They were ashamed to know me. The other students whispered. I had gone from having many friends and people who respected me, to losing it all because of one party. It took a few weeks to blow over, but people still haven't forgotten. It wasn't until I met someone very special to me that I realized, its not the hand you were dealt that defines who you are- its how you deal with it. And even if you make a few mistakes, as long as you learn and grow from them they won't define you either. They will always be there- it wouldn't be right for them to be forgotten, they help you grow- but they are forgiven, and that's the beauty of grace. Don't you wish high school students knew about it? lol.
In essence, although we may all have made some DUMB decisions, we cannot let them run our lives. If I only though of myself as "the girl who got picked up by some cops at a high school party", where would I be? I wouldn't think of myself as any better than that because I wouldn't know how to forgive myself. So forgive yourself! Grace allows it, no matter what you did, seek forgiveness from those you hurt, and ultimately, forgive yourselves. You deserve a break.
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