POETRY

In a heartbeat

In a smile

In a kiss on the cheek

In a look filled with passion but disguised in friendship

Love was lost

In waiting for a train on a platform

In the loud sound of speakers announcing your departure

In words that could not be spelled out ... lingering in the throat, choking you

In hands that reached and touched but did not dare to grab

Life in twosome was lost

The smiles and the sounds of laughter of running small people … girls and boys

The umbilical cord that was supposed to be cut

The first night to hold the first born

The union that never took place

Children unborn were lost

No fresh basil could be shared on the Pasta

No hot coffee could be drank while still naked in bed

No burning cigarettes to be shared mouth to mouth

No spicy red wine to be poured on her chest and make her want to sneeze

And so… scents and tastes were lost too

In walking in a park in the fall making a painting of the colorful leaves on the green canvas of the grass

In feeding the fish when sitting in the water under the sun

In chasing each other on a beach

In counting kisses and breaths when she lays next to me in all tranquillity

Pleasures were lost

The sound of her sigh

The rhythms, making us want to dance

Those starchy, crispy sheets in the middle of night when she would turn around

Her prayers

Sounds were lost

What if I had told her?

What if I had stayed?

What if I had dared?

What if SHE had dared?

What if?

Like the leaves falling from a tree in a golden October morning

Years have removed themselves form the time buffer of my life

And the unknown haunts

The IFs come out from the backdoor of my memory and shake their heads and click their tongues and look at me with pity! As if to say … all you needed to do was to dare.

What if?

Strange … a moment of hesitation can nullify a full life

A daring heart can change the course of a whole life

So much lost

No more ifs, no more buts

Better to love and lose than not to love at all.