Sevoumin Shab

Age ea jaei boud bare dad zadan ta hanjarat pareh she be man bego hatman,ea jaei ke faghat nafas bekshi , vaghti asemouno mibenam jolum az fart zibaei khol misham,az hasodi miterkam,az in ke nemidounam chera alan eanjam v farda chi mishe ? mikham ba souraat beram tou baghaliya,ama kou jourat???nazdik be 3 saal pish hamin mogheha boud ,tou mah ramezoun ,oun moghe taze Frida baz shodeh boud vali khalvat boud ,forsati bari ashnay beshtar ,ba Madaresh az dir vaghat ashna boudam ,har vaghat mizangidam khonashoun ba Madaresh harf mizadam,adame jalbi boud baram.ta oun rooz khodesh goshi rou bardasht...khob forsat khobi boud ta mobalesho gerftam,fardash tamas gerftam,zood ghat shod chon migof dalili nemibene bare edame harf zadan ba man !!! khodesh gofte boud bezangam behesh?! manam semej dobareh gerftamesh,az rou ke nemiram !?,bego bikar boudi khare?!bavar kon goftam behesh hamoun aval : man 36 saalame v ea pesar daram,etraz jedi yadam nist azash,fkr kardam mesle man in ghaziearou ea fajeh nemidoune v adamarou ba gozashtashoun nemishnase,in shayad ea etefagh ?,shayad ea eshtebah toue moarefi kardan beham ?,shayad shans?,shayad kor bodan ya kar shodan?,khar shodan?,gosh be harf hichkas nadadan?,shayadam ASHEGH shodan?barash boud??!!!.are Kash asheghi naboud...

Vali man zendgi khili khoshgli ba eshgh dashtam ke ta ,hata ea modat bad az harafi ba oun hanooz yadesh bodam,entezar dashtam ea rouz bargarde,ama engar khoda nakhast ,khoda az avalesham razi naboud behem gofte boud ,man eyne ahmagha kar khodamo kardam,migoftam khoda nazaresho be khater bandehash avaz mikone ,kard ,ama bare ea modat ,v ean modat faghat 1 saal boud.vaghti bade 8 saal raftam tehran hanooz mitonstam atre ouno beshnavam,bavar nemikoni ?,asaln jolou khodamo natounstam begiram,souratam khis e khis boud amanamo bourideh boud.hamoun kouche,hamoun gharara...Kash asheghi naboud.Kash asheghi naboud,shayad chizi boud ke khob boud,nemidounam vali dos dashtani boud har chi boud ,kofti khili bahal boud.eane ea khabe khob ke nemikhai bidar beshi,kash hamoun khab be khab beriiiiiiiiiii...rasti midouni KHODA kojast?KHODA asheghe?maloume ke hast.ea ashegh hesabi,na mese man ke hamash gand mizane...